The Place Between #GrowGirl

We hear a lot about mid-life crisis, you see a man in his 60’s divorce his wife of 30 years and buy a drop top convertible, we think “Yup, Mid-life Crisis”. You see a women in her 50’s cutting off her hair and getting plastic surgery we think “Mid-Life Crisis”, but we hear about far less often is the Crisis of coming into adulthood and no longer needing the defenses that you picked up in your youth, to survive being raised in the home you grew up in or the highly sensitive fight or flight response you used to cope in high school and college for most of us that happens somewhere between 25 and 35 and I like to call this, our quarter life crisis.

For me this came about around 29, I was married with 3 kids, I loved Jesus, my husband was in the military and I had survived the divorce curse of my family never being married longer that 7 years. On paper my life wasn’t so bad. But inside societal standards, familial expectations and insecurity made me feel that at 29 years old I had failed. I am not exaggerating when I tell you my life felt like it was over at 30 years old. In hindsight this all seems a bit silly that it took all of this to begin this journey but in retrospect that depression and anxiety was the domino that began the process of realizing just how unhealthy I was. I guess you can say it was when the seed that was planted. It was time to do soul work, it was time to look at more than my spirituality and the Bible, I realize if I am going to be healthy that the mind, spirit and body were meant to work as one. I am not where I want to be, but I’ve recognized the need for a change, and I guess you can say I’m in the place between. Over the last 2 years so much has happened under the ground where people couldn’t see.

The last few years God has shown my heart and my need for a savior, but he has also shown me how beautifully vast he is and just how much he wants to do through me and in me. And although I am a Bible believing Christian I recognize that the trinity does not consist of “The Father, The Son and The Holy Bible” but the “The father, The Son and The Holy Spirit” and though he loved us so much that he gave us a guide and manual, the Holy Spirit is not limited to the Bible, he also uses the beauty in his creation, the giftings in the ones he created and so much more. I don’t know exactly what this looks like, but I guess you can say this is the space between, the budding process when finally see the things planted grow into something that is visible and tangible. It’s the place where I’m learning that the process of maturity and growth takes time and that even after a plant reached maturity it never stops growing, they just produce seeds that produce more plants and they continue to blossom in all their God given glory. I am inviting you to share in the experience of the growth process as I grow in HER.

Signed,

HER